How Not To Propose A Girl

The title is derived after learning from my own experience. I am no Hitch or Prem or any other 'Love Guru'. And this post won't give you any advice on love or relationships. There are hundreds of blog-posts and content on relationship advice. Google them, if you may like. 

Recently, a bunch of old pals from my junior college created a Whatsapp group and are planning a reunion sometime in the near future. What I did not know was that I might connect back with one person in particular, the one who I have been looking for since past 8 years, a girl who I had proposed, rather blurted my feelings out, like I had to catch the last flight out before annihilation took place.

Let me take you back in time with 'Flashback Kitty'

So, back in 2006, after months of listening to a playlist that comprised of Himesh Reshammiya (don't you judge me... back then, he was everywhere), Jal, and a few other romantic numbers, I decided it was time to confess my love, or so I thought it was then.

Preceding numerous occasion to the D-day were days, when I would stand outside her college way past college hours, almost for 2-3 hours with another friend; who too used to wait for her girl. The only difference - he had a girl, I didn't.  The following was the outcome after waiting for so long -

• Girl exits college
• Looks at the Guy
• Guy looks back at her
• Both Smile
• Exchange Pleasantries (from a distance of 2-3 feet)
• Girl leaves
• Guy also leaves 

As for the other friend, he walks away with his girl.

Cut back to the D-day. I followed the same routine. Stood outside her college. Waited for 2-3 hours. Girl comes out of the college with a bunch of friends. Panic strikes within. Still continuing the same routine, I smile, exchange pleasantries. She is walking with her group to a canteen nearby. She sits and I approach her. 

It has been eight years since this incidence, hence I am not able to recollect every word, but this is what I told her; without any pauses or an iota of emotion -

I want to talk to you. I don't know what this. For the past few months, 3-4 months to be precise, I have been listening to Himesh Reshammiya, Jal and other romantic numbers which I have kept on my winamp (RIP) playlist for eternity. It's something like love, but not exactly the same. I won't call it love. It is definitely not an infatuation, I am way past that phase of my life. I am not looking for an answer. I just want you to hear me out. I have developed kind of feelings for you. That's about it. Thank you.

Phew! What a relief it was. I left from there. I did not wait for an answer. I wasn't even expecting one. But that was the day I last saw her. No, she did not die, she still is alive and healthy. At least that is what my sources say. Sometimes I used to Google her as she is not present on any social networking sites. I still look forward to speak to her, one last time for a (dis)closure.

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